3rd day of running will have to wait one more day...

.....because my body had other plans today. It sucks, but what can do you do?

This has been very stressful week for myself and Josh. I had to take a huge responsibility at work, which I did very well of being the only supervisor the WHOLE WEEK. On top of that, at home I was being trying be a rock for Josh, who was dealing with the dying uncle who passed away from cancer on Wednesday after a long battle with the disease. He flew out last night at the last minute to LAX with his mom and grandma to attend the funeral until Saturday night.

Well, the stress did me under last night after I dropped Josh off. One stomach ache later that was comforted by ginger tea and then waking up this morning with chills and slight fever - NOT GOOD! I still mustered to go to work this morning until 11:00 in order to take care of business before I handed the reigns to my OIC for the rest of day.

Then I stopped at the new Whole Food in Boys' Town to get supplies until Josh gets home and then SLEPT! The sleeping was difficult for the first couple of hours due to the damn Air Show practice flying OVER MY BUILDING.

Well, the rest of the weekend is up in the air especially tomorrow. I hope to get the 3 miles in tommorow at the gym done. I will have to see.

Relaxation Day....

.....and I REALLY need one. I had to work yesterday instead of my usual day off. I could have gone back in time because the 2nd half of the shift SUCKED! The 30-minute transition to the 2nd shift SUCKED. 3 people either called in sick, told me that they did not want to come in to work, or just plain did not show up (as I am aware of at this time until I go back tomorrow AM.) I was SO mad! I wanted to finish the shift calm and ready to work on an important due this weekend. And what did do when I got home? I crashed.....literately. I fell asleep on the bed within seconds while waiting for my love to finish his work on the computer. My body was SO tired from being cranked out for over 3 hours. It was exhausted from the stress I was under. Well, after 45 minutes nap, I woke up and completed my paper. I relaxed with my boyfriend watching "Running on the Sun". I do not recommend eating anything BEFORE, DURING, AND AFTER the movie. It is a great running/motivation movie. But there's lot of toenails falling off, HUGE puss-filled blisters (and being drained too), and vomiting in the movie. Yes, it was THAT gross - NO joke! I am SO sorry to list them, but it's in the movie. It was great to see the participants not giving up during the Badwater 135 Ultra-marathon. We had to stop in in the middle of the movie because both of us were getting really sleepy. (I had to ask Josh to FORWARD past the guy vomiting right before we stopped the movie.) Josh had his Run for the Zoo 5K this morning. He gave me the option - even though it was his first 5K ever - to stay home to rest after the horrible day yesterday. I wanted to go, but my body did not want to. It did not sleep well the night before (some DUMB ASS - no one we know - calls at almost 1 am. WTF?). Well, as I was in dreamland, my boyfriend did AWESOME and even SMASHED his own PR. He called me right after he finished and let me know how he did. I am SO proud of him. He came home, showered, and then wrote his blog entry. Then it was off to Dim Sum - his treat. SO yummy! After we stuffed our face, the rest of the day was OURS. Rest, rest, and more rest. Tomorrow's another work day. I envy Josh's because he's a little shorter than mine since he's going to GMR on Thursday with the gang. Oh well. The weekend will be mine - at least until Josh gets home. Now back to the land of relaxation...

Confession time..

...because I have been SO naughty and lazy. The last time I hit the gym or did any good cardio workouts was on the day of the half-marathon on Sunday. I have been MAJORLY slacking off....BIG TIME! On top of that, I have been eating REALLY, REALLY bad. People who are close to me don't even now about my naughty eating has been this past week. I have been keeping it a HUGE secret until now. Here's the list of things that I have been eating this week starting on Monday (Sunday does not count because I am restoring my carbs, etc): One theatre-sized box of chocolate covered Tootsie Rolls

• 5 piece of chicken nuggets and a Sour Cream and Chive baked potato (and LOTS of butter too)from Wendy's at the airport
• A Regular-sized Roasted Beef Sandwich with a 5 piece of Loaded Baked Potato Bites from Arby's Bagel and Cream Cheese (at lunch with a salad...and a croissant)
• Two large pieces of the cherry cheesecake I made as part of truce for my ex (Well, it worked...more later in this post! I know that I am going to get lectured after this.)
• A Frosty from Wendy's with chopped M&M's (right before the 2nd piece of cherry cheesecake...before I went to bed alone!)
• One really yummy piece of Flourless Chocolate Cake from Whole Foods that I ate after I talked before someone's bedtime tonight.
• Countless pieces of chocolate candy out of the staff's candy jars since Wednesday
• Two glasses of Chai Cider, which warmed me up tonight but loaded with 110 calories EACH
• One Frosted Old-Fashioned Donut from Krispy Kreme (after my chiropractor appointment on Tuesday morning)
• One whole mini pizza with hamburger, EXTRA mozzarella cheese, and basil from Old Chicago (and wished I had a BEER to go with it - DAMN IT!)
• One whole bottle of Raspberry Lambic upon my arrival back home from Phoenix (and BOY did I need it...even after the 4 beers during the victory party the night before!)
• One very yummy frosty tropical drink (with ALCOHOL!) at Kokomo's at the Mall of America with Danielle
• Chicken Strips and garlic mashed potatoes at Kokomo's to go with the tropical drink
• YUMMY Indian Food at my favorite Indian Restuarant in Roseville - THREE pieces of naan, Tandoori Chicken, Beef Josh, LOTS of RICE, rice pudding - SOOOO YUMMY, and those YUMMY fried malted balls drenched in sugary syrup that I ate later that evening with my salmon on Wednesday

There's more, but I can not think of it - or in total denial - right now. Anyway, I know that I am dealing with a lot on my plate right now - finishing up the divorce process, not being able to run because I am resting after the half-marathon until maybe Sunday, dealing with my soon-to-be ex who's still living with me, working two 12 hour shifts this week and one more thing that I am not ready to disclose...yet. I guess the damn emotional eating is starting to catch up to me again. I usually use the treadmill or eliptical to get rid of the stress and not feel guilty about eating this junk, but I know that the scale may catch up with me. Speaking of the divorce process, the divorce papers are SIGNED and ready to turned into the local family court. I was able to get the first part of the process done today, but have to wait a week before turning the original divorce papers. The lady at the family court told me that it could take as short as one week or as long as one month before the divorce is finalized by the judge and entered into the court by the court administrator. It took me over 16 months to get my first divorce finalized after losing my divorce attorney when I had surgery and changing judges too in the process. Of course, I was dealing with being married for over 7 years, owning a house, and having two children involved too. It makes a HUGE difference. This is the more quicker - and CHEAPER - version of the divorce. So technically I could be divorced by Valentine's Day if I get my way. I will be Chicago on February 10-13 for another visit with Josh as my host again so it will be a good time to have a get-together with any Chicago RBF members. Anyone for takers? Plus I also found out that my mom's selling the dream house that my late father built for them before he died. It is very painful issue for me. The house is the only thing left of my dad's memory. I hate to see it go. I want to beg my mom to reconsider, but she can not afford to live there. It's a very beautiful house too on a lake. Living on a lake in Minnesota is the ultimate dream, but will be a memory soon. I almost wish that my dad was still here and not gone. Anyways, I have attached in a previous post a song that is a little theme of my life. Well, that's according to this survey I took on MySpace.com, which matches that #1 song on your 18th birthday. This song was the theme to the 1992 show, "The Heights." This may be a show that you youngin's (those under the age of 25) may not remember or know, but it was one show that I watched when I was not working at my after-school job during my senior year of high school. (OMG...I am SO damn old!) It is similar to the Beverly Hills 90210, which I LOVED because it matched the same year that I graduated from high school in 1993.