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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Recommitment Anxiety.....

...which will not go away. Now it's almost reality for me. It's 3 weeks away. We received the e-mail reminding about it. I am SO scared! I have sent all of my donation request e-mails and letters via snail mail. I sent out 5 Corporate Sponsorship letters, which I am still waiting to hear back from 4 out of 5 companies. I had set up a Pampered Chef Party, which is so far a disaster - only one person committed to come - that's my mom! I am in the middle of trying to get a Pancake Breakfast set up, which will have to happen in November or so - after re-commitment. I plan to sell wreaths and other Christmas greenery through a very popular florist, which I hope will go well - even though people may not be thinking about it now. I have to raise half of the $3600 - $1800 so far by November 1. I have only $677 received so far. **sigh** I have a plan to send out follow-up postcards by Friday. I hope that it helps make up the donations to start coming in again. It has been very SLOW! I am NOT slacking off...PERIOD. I also have to follow-up on the corporate letters too. I hope to hear from someone very soon. I need a miracle. I have worked VERY hard to train for this marathon. I am NOT going to give up...period. No one is going to stop me...period. I asked my dad for help from up above. I hope that someone will listen to me and jump start the donations again. I am doing this for him. I do not want to see another family go through that same pain that my family went through. He was a very strong man during his leukemia treatment. He did not complain one bit. That's one thing that I remember about about his treatment. I also remember that he fought at the end, even under all of those machines to help him breathe, etc. He did not want to let go. When I upset this morning about the TNT donations stuff, I knew that I needed to head to the gym...NOW! I needed to get the anxiety out before it took control of me. Instead of running on the treadmill, I decided to take the run onto the treadmill even though most of my leg was feeling better. I did not want to take a chance. I did 6 miles...and some on the eliptical machine at a very good pace. After the work-out, I made a phone call to the chiropractor's office for the free 15 minute massage - just enough time for them to work on my calves and legs - which need it ALOT. I do have some good news in all of this anxiety. I just received my final grade for my 4th class toward my Bachelor's Degree and it was another A. I felt very good when I saw that. I started a psychology course today, which is a little easier. No papers, but a quiz each week - a little more pressure to continue this success so far. Well, I plan to do another day on the eliptical machine tommorow before I shower and head to the chiropractor's office for the massage. Please stay warm - or if it's warm where you are - PLEASE bring back the heat again. It's 30 degrees right now and we had......SNOW here for a little bit. UGH! Today's Work-Out 65 minutes - Eliptical machine 6.58 miles 747 calories burned 9:52/mile

5 comments:

Wes said...

I LUV charity events. I didn't know that was what you were working towards. Send me an email with the address to send the check. I can't promise you much, but I'll talk to Dee Dee and see what the restaurants and I, personally, can help you out with.

Anonymous said...

I'll be glad to help too.

teacherwoman said...

Sorry about all the anxiety...but GREAT job on your A!!! WAHOO!!!

Wanna-be 5k-er said...

You are a determined woman!!!!!! And WTG on the A!

Major GL with the fundraising, your passion and committment will rub off on people, I know it! I just made a little donation online, I wish you MUCH LUCK!!

Danielle said...

I can feel for the worry...it's probably why I've never looked at the team in training things because I just don't know that I could raise that much money. But for those that can, I raise my hat to them.